I’m not really sure what’s going on. If I did something, if I hurt you, or if you just need to be alone. A heads up would be nice. I just wish I could be your friend. If nothing else at least for right now I just want to be there for you. I want to be that rock or that shield or that house so you don’t have to go it alone. Friends do exist ya know. You don’t have to go through whatever it is alone. We don’t up and disappear during the night. Ive been thinking recently that whats been going on has just been me being selfish and I really wanted to apologize for that. So on the off chance you are still reading this, I am sorry. Please, just know that I am here
Just cuz it’s on my mind
I don’t get what’s going on, like at all. I mean I have some ideas but I’m not sure. So here I go, freaking out again, catching my breath telling me that freaking out isn’t the right way to face a problem like this. I try and re-assemble myself to see the facade slowly dissipating again. It’s frightening almost, the bad reactions I have to these turn of events. Oh well, not much I can change now I guess. I’ll slip into my euphoric state of confusion and panic and wait to ride out the storm and see what comes of it. “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, but about dancing in the rain.” So I’ll just keep on believing, because right now it’s about all I can do
